Anorexia · Eating Disorder · Poetry

Dear Eating Disorder – by Rosie

Dear Eating Disorder | Letters to the Mind

I hate you for taking over me
and making me believe this is how I want to be.
Why do I stay with you when all you do is put me down?
make me starve ’til I fit into the smallest gown,
with the loss of each gram I’m closer to my goal,
with your grip tightening over my dark soul.
Filled with fear at every bite I take,
your plan, my plan, would be ruined by cake.
Counting calories, and fearing how much I weigh
I am beginning to feel like you are here to stay.
My reflection has become something I fear,
I dread the time I have to look in the mirror.
The pain in my stomach never goes away,
it grumbles with hunger while in bed I lay.
You tell me you are my only true friend
and make me fear the day this relationship must end,
but I know your presence is here for a while,
so I hide this relationship behind a smile.
Dear eating disorder I know you are wrong,
but how can you make me feel this strong?

© Rosie Elsom 2016


About the author:

My name is Rosie, I am 18 years old and from the UK. I suffer from a variety of mental illnesses however this poem is focused particularly on my anorexia which I have suffered with for many years and has led me to numerous inpatient admissions. During my lows, my highs and my admissions, I have found poetry a really positive and productive thing and it has helped me to make sense of some of the chaos in my head.

My favorite quote is one from Jane Eyre by Charlotte Brontë and it is:

“I am no bird; and no net ensnares me: I am a free human being with an independent will” – Charlotte Brontë, Jane Eyre 

I like this quote because sometimes mental illness’ can make you feel trapped but it is important to remember you have the power, potential and the ability to be free.

Blog: Positiviteablog

Read the original post: To my eating disorder (poem)

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3 thoughts on “Dear Eating Disorder – by Rosie

  1. Rosie, that was very powerful and effective. I definitely have a more comprehensive understanding of the depths this disease can cause.

    I admit that even though I know it kills I am guilty of not seeing it for the enormous burden it truly is. I had not given it the respect I give other mental illnesses. In one poem you’ve changed that. I am grateful for this better understanding. Thank you so much for sharing and enlightening the rest of us.

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    1. I am speechless, I never in a million years expected a response like that. I am so glad that I have been able to offer you some insight through this poem and if you have a look at my blog I may be able to offer you even more insight. Thankyou again for your comments it really means a lot xx

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